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Post by Deleted on Feb 17, 2014 13:49:25 GMT -5
@bengalmania2 For what its worth...you said Im an old guy and have my priorities in order.
That I do...Its like Craig said...moderation.
I love this forum because I feel like I can talk about anything and everything,and I like everyone here except just about 2 people. I get bored sometimes after work,and if I dont have anything to do...I come here to see whats new. Some days I have things to do...some days I dont.
But you are right about one thing...I dont let the internet get in the way of life...and If It ever did....Then there comes a time when you have to just tell yourself to stop with it.
We are all football fans and we love FOOTBALL. Nothing gets in the way of one day a week for me....but every other day...I can say no to football and this forum and the internet. And a smart phone and a playstation and a tablet and a Wii. LOL
Its just that we all came together having something in common,and we have become accustomed to each other like family.
I really dont see anything wrong as long as its in moderation.
And BTW...as far as being successful in life or being all you can be....Well...maybe you dont wanna hear this...But if you put God first in your life...then you will see a change for the better. Of course thats JMO and my advice to you.
I have been down and out before not knowing where the next meal would come from. I have had my ups and downs...But right now...Its all ups that I can see because of God for me.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 17, 2014 20:23:19 GMT -5
Alright, I think now is the time I start telling the story of my life from start to finish. Little by little I will keep explaining more stuff. Where to began.
My name is Evan Hamey, for those that don't know already from my youtube/google account. But of course you know me as Bengalmania. Had previous names at one point as bengalcrazy, mrcrazy, and now currently my new user name MrCincinnati. But that is for another story later. I was born in Cincinnati of course and I think I was very fortunate to not get stuck with bad parents. My dad was from Cleveland and was the youngest of 6. Everyone except one of his siblings turned out good, and one of them had gambling and drinking problems for most of his life, but just 5 years ago he started to get his life back on track. My mom was the middle sibling of two brothers. Her dad and I were very close at one point, until I learned more about him. Her brothers were both a bunch of bums and real pricks, whom both also gave me problems along the way. I don't like the fact that both my parents have given me a lot of stress at times, but I still love them. I get along with my mom more often though, even if we don't always agree.
My sister and brother and I don't always see eye to eye, but I will still always love them too. My brother is a lot better at pretty much everything than me, but I easily get along with him just fine, even if he doesn't like to socialize a lot. My sister on the other hand, I can't say the same. We always get into arguments a lot, and in the past she would always lash out at me. I didn't understand why she hated me, but apparently she sensed that I was the favorite of the family just because I would always get all this help, but in reality I didn't want help. I never asked a lot from my parent's because I felt I didn't deserve it, and yet it wasn't enough to convince my sister. I tried to what I can to make her happy in hopes that she would stop, but whenever I wanted a favor she would say no.
It's one thing in life to have people you meet in life bring you down, but its more crushing when your own flesh and blood wants to make you feel like shit. I only wanted to please my family and I would do whatever they wanted me to do, just so they don't get mad at me. But when I failed at stuff or If I don't want to do something, it pisses them off. Its mainly problems with my Dad and Sister though. My mom knows I am too hard on myself and she tries to help me, but she hasn't worked in a while and yet she criticizes me for not finding better jobs. My dad told me though I need to not focus on making friends, and that I need to focus on making money and finishing college first.
Thats basically the skinny on my family background. Thats enough story time for now. Now time for responses
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Post by Deleted on Feb 17, 2014 20:30:40 GMT -5
Hi Bengal, it's Beast. I'm glad you cleared that up about the suicide/murder shit, because that's honestly what I was thinking you were talking about by the way you've been talking, LOL. I've been here pretty much every other day since though, and I've been reading this thread actively. I'm more of a ghost here now. I'm here, but I'm really not. I don't know, I guess I enjoy just watching instead of talking sometimes. I'm impressed by your new mentality and admitting you need to change the way you're taking on life. It's true what you said about yourself, although maybe a bit overdramatic? You say that you have missed once in a lifetime opportunities and you'll never have the same chances again. Well. If you say so it's probably true. But that doesn't mean you've ruined your whole life. I understand that you've fucked up. Let me guess. You failed college and lost scholarship money because of it? That's what happened to my brother last year. He had a full-ride to Missouri S&T and his story seems pretty identical to yours. He sat on his computer all day long at college and because of it, failed. He had an addiction problem just like you, except his addiction was on video games, not online chatting places like here. So now, my brother works at Jack in the Box full time. He's immature for his age, but he's starting to realize that he fucked up big time. Does he want to be working in Jack in the Box the rest of his life? Well. He's wasted 2+ years of his life now. And he's going to have to take out student loans and he's going to be in big debt now if/when he goes back to college. This is all because he was too immature and couldn't set himself a good equilibrium between work and play. I find it ironic that you come on here and state where you are in life and what's going on with you personally after I sent a PM to someone I cared about here who I believe is in a similar situation to you. He's just in denial about it. Believe it or not Bengal, a lot of people who post here are in a similar situation to you. I guess I'm referring moreso to the active posters here. You and Jancey have both taken leaves and stated why because you realized you weren't accomplishing what you wanted to in life. You realized you guys were spending too much time here, correct? Bengal, before I self deleted I had the SAME amount of posts as you, literally within 10, except I accumulated mine on a much longer time basis. You were addicted here. I should probably respond to your answers, but instead I have to ask you stuff. I am confused, why is your account banned? I admit that I don't really have a clue what has happened recently, but perhaps you have a good reason for deleting your profile. You said something about religion issues and trolling. Maybe you can explain a bit more for me if you don't mind.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 17, 2014 21:23:54 GMT -5
craig440-I am not sure yet, but nothing is certain, so you could be right. After I am done with this, I might change my mind, even if the outcome is bad. Jindred-The way I see success is just not being unhappy with your life experience, not being poor, and knowing your accepted by others. Being rich and having a sexy wife is not something I am aiming for because its not always common and generally it can create problems. All I want is a stable job where I can make enough money so I won't have to worry about going in debt, get some respect on being known that I can be valuable to people, and have my own family that will accept me for who I am. You mention being good in school doesn't really mean everything, but I disagree. When you apply for jobs, and you list that you finished college, they know your not some dumb ass and you actually know how to work and focus on stuff. People will judge the book by its cover and will just assume that your not that good unless you get some achievements first. @eddiej2010-Here's the thing though, you CAN'T just do whatever the fuck you want just because it makes you happy. I don't want do plenty of the things like college, but it has to be done in order for me to make my life a bit easier down the road. Yes you should do what you enjoy, however sometimes you just don't have a choice Divebitch-Thats the problem, the only reason you guys are willing to help me is because you don't know about my whole life. The typical person would run away from a person with no social life, once they spill out all there secrets that nobody was expecting to hear. Being behind this computer screen has been my escape in life to get away from my troubles, and I though I could ignore these problems forever. But sooner or later, it caught up to me. I have friends who do care about me, but very few. My love life is more worse, which I really don't feel comfortable about talking about yet, but eventually I will. I think what's really bad though is trusting the wrong people which I did too many times, and eventually you don't want to open yourself to anybody ever again in fearing you will be hurt again. @jeffb2865-What you said about god is very true. I have went to church a lot in the past, but really did nothing more. At times I would bring myself to trust him, and then at times I just pushed him out of my life. Lately I haven't done a good job of it, and that's something I need to do. I need to just let my life play out, but I have a hard time doing that. I have much to learn still. Thank you
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Post by Deleted on Feb 17, 2014 21:54:49 GMT -5
@bengalmania2 - you didn't totally catch my drift. I don't really have the time right now to go back and sift through the convo, but how you took it, compared to what I was trying to say.....not exactly on the same page
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Post by Deleted on Feb 18, 2014 1:52:35 GMT -5
Evan let me tell you a story. My nephew Curtis was considered to have "learning disabilities". His mom, my sister, has an IQ of close to 160. Mensa stuff. Any way she was real worried Curtis wouldn't make it well in life. His "disability" drove her half nuts. Curtis liked to cook. He played some baseball growing up and did well thru pony league. He barely made it thru high school. But he loved to cook. He is now head chef and food and beverage manager for one of the most prestigious hotels in San Diego. He married a Charger cheer leader (yes he's good looking) and just bought a house. He did go to some culinary school.
But the moral of the story is, He found something he liked, was good at, and enjoyed. You will do just fine.
Story number two. My son. Joey. He never did well thru high school with grades. After high school he didn't do anything much. But he loved to golf. Had some talent at it. He went to Golf College. Cost a lot but they teach you to golf and in the mean time you get a degree. He got his degree in Business. Played in tournaments to try and get on the pro tour. He did real good, was able to be the leader. UNTIL the eighteenth hole. He would choke. Blow a one foot putt and blow the win. He did it over and over. I was his caddie. Then he hurt his knee. His dream was over. BUT he got a job installing home theaters. He now is a foreman for a company that installs all the tech stuff in hotels, camp Penalton, high school gyms, etc. He was real down on himself until he found this job. Its just something he "GETS" And now he is confident and happy. He's proud of himself for the first time. He's been proud for two years. He's 32.
Moral: You don't always get what you want. But if you try real hard, sometimes you get what you need.
Story 3). Me. I did good in high school. Went to Hawaii for the summer after senior year. Came back and went to college. Stayed in school for about a month. Sold my car and moved back to Hawaii. Worked as a dishwasher. Two years later moved back to San Diego. Worked as a laborer in the union. Made great money for a kid. Dirty hard work though. My Mom the realtor, paid for me to go to real estate school. I lasted two classes. Bored as hell. Wanted to surf. I got laid off from the union job cuz the job was over. I collected unemployment. Thought I would start my own pool service route. I liked the smell of pools and the new equipment. I read up on it and put in an add in the Penny Saver. Forty years latter I'm still at it. I'm way better at it now than I was then. I actually know what I'm doing now. Back then I just took a chance and it worked out. It took some experience to learn.
Moral. I don't have a college degree, but I have had a good career anyway. You don't always have to graduate college to succeed.
Last story) A customer of mine who is 66 yrs old. Worked for Citi Bank for years. Got laid off during the cut back. Likes birds and wood working. He started a bird house and seed selling business. He makes bird houses in his garage. He's about to get picked up by Costco. He's already selling in lots of nurseries. He's loving life.
Moral. He went to college, had a high power job and was miserable. He's now doing something he loves and is happy as a Lark.
Life is an ever changing adventure. Enjoy the ride. It's a long one, but so short.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 20, 2014 23:57:04 GMT -5
I'm actually glad you brought some of this up, Bengal. I'm gonna tell you, same as I once told myself, and somebody else just recently......... Try not to take this whole forum thing too seriously. I used to do that on NFL site.....and maybe a time or two here It's just silly though. We have real life to deal with, and this should just be a place to go to when there's nothing else more important to do. If you ever find yourself thinking of this place often during the day(while away from it).....it might be a real good time to step back, take a look in the mirror(while slapping yourself in the face), and just leave this place alone for awhile. Come back when you get your priorities straight.
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